justnevilledup:

victorpopejr:

Regretting not asking for help in stores

Customer: Man, I can’t find nothing in this store.

Employee: Hey, sir, is there anything I can help you with?

Customer: Nah, I’m good, thank you.

Employee: Alright.

Customer: (internal) I should’ve said yes. I have roamed this store for what feels like an eternity. Without assistance, I feel my acquisition will be a permanent one. If only I could rewind time and accept the blessing that is help. If only I had-

Different employee: Hey, sir, is there anything I can help you find?

Customer: (out loud) Oh, no, thank you, though. Thanks.

Employee: (off screen) Okay, let me know if you need help.

Customer: (internal) I am beginning to lose all hope, not only in this journey, but in myself as well…

My life is a whole lot of I cannot.
I cannot trust anyone because what if they hurt me.
I cannot fathom to think about the future because any disappointment regarding it will hurt me.
I cannot fall in love because of course that will hurt me.
I cannot feel things. I cannot feel anything at all because – yes you guessed it right – I am scared of it hurting me.

I am so afraid of being vulnerable to others that I just keep hurting myself.

What kind of masochistic logic is that?

you are going to be in pain either way, might as well do things that scare you instead of being afraid // .a.c.